Thanks Mom

Transmitter wrote this in the wee hours:

There’s nothing like a holiday spent with family to remember why I’m so crazy. I feel like Frankenstein, a genderless conglomeration of obsessive compulsive manic depression. In a manic fit I’ll color code and organize everything in sight, then tear it all apart and leave it in a depressing heap.

Despite the even split (three sons and three daughters) my maternal family is quite imbalanced. Each one has their own manifestation of obsessive compulsive and bipolar disorders. The family all together is a fantastic site. They all feed and goad each other, toying with the seesaw of sanity. My grandma was the family fulcrum. Somehow she held everyone together.

I just lean back in my chair and finish another glass of wine. I barely notice that the potatoes need more salt.

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5 Responses to “Thanks Mom”

  1. Gina Says:

    I do believe I’d handle family gatherings on my mother’s side better if alcohol was an option. My mother’s side is extemely anti-alcohol, so it is not.

    Family dysfunction and mental instabilities become more apparent following the earning of a Psychology degree. I wish sometimes I did not have the self-awareness and actualization I do so I could live more blissfully ignorant of family chaos.

    I spent the holiday thankfully in peace, free of family, and it was the best decision I ever made. Did you enjoy your family time or would you have been better off back here in STL?

  2. Transmitter Says:

    I enjoyed the majority of my trip. I can’t escape the insanity when it’s inside me.

  3. The Beautiful Kind Says:

    even split = bi-polar

    Was your grandma the sanest one in the family? Is that why she’s no longer with us? Does insanity ensure longevity?

    You may well live forever if you survive the plane jumps and heroin…

  4. Lucky Strike Says:

    pass the potatoes (I’m crazy too).

  5. Gina Says:

    Well none of us escape the insanity inside of us, but life is more bearable when we have only our own insanity and not our family’s insanity too to endure.

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